IMPATIENCE IS THE ENEMY OF NOW

I'll be honest I don't really know what to write about today. But I've committed to doing 100 days straight of blog posts so I'm going to commit.

Recently I have been dealing with a lack a of patience. Since coming back from Paris I have been so hungry for success! Like I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way, but it's like I want everything I want right now! But at the same time I've realised that If I was able to have everything in an instance it wouldn't really mean much, because not much (Time / energy) was spent to get it. There would be no story to look back on.

I'm intentionally learning to be more present and realise that today will never come again. This moment only last for a moment and we are supposed to appreciate that. This journey I will only ever be on once. The long hours of writing, waking up early, working out, eating right, being with friends, being alone, writing my 4th public blog... All of these things should actually be cherished as they happen. I know what awaits me. I know that I'm going to make it because I won't stop until I do, so In a way there is actually no reason to worry.

Impatinece is the enemy of now. Plus the more you want something the less it's yours. I should actually just accept it. Everything I want is already mine. As I continue to put out work and create, success is enevitable. It's the same with writing a script. I have recently started writing 3 pages a day as a standard daily thing. As I do that I no longer have to think about the script getting finished. Because of this habit, getting a script finished is no longer a goal, it's simply a result. Maybe that's how I should treat everything in life. If I spend more time with my mum then inevitably we'll grow closer, If I just focus on eating healthy meals today, then being healthy is no longer a goal but a result. This could actually be a really good way to avoid anxiety in most areas of life. By simply being present and focusing on you're doing right now, knowing the potential impact it'll have on your future. Nothing else matters. Couldn't imagine anything worse then getting everything I want, only to look back and realise that I wasted years of my life having not enjoyed the journey.

Huh. Didn't expect to get so deep today lol. But that's what I 'm going to do from now on, just be more present. I think taking a step away from scrolling and stuff on social media would help too. I've realised that when I'm mindlessly on social media I lowkey feel as though I'm severing my connection to God within that moment. The days I am barely on my phone and socials are the days when I am most present, grateful and just generally happier. Looks like I know what to do.

I'm actually happy that I've created this platform to be able to share my thoughts and feelings. I feel so much more free and it seems like people are resonating with these blogs. Feels good! Excited to see what changes over the next 97 days. :)

Anyway enjoy the sun. It is warm as fuck outside! lol.